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SPRAIN

Another nocturnal adventure... After the 4th worship service, lorrin and i together with some friends from COG, headed to Brother's Burger at Alabang. We all had a great time with our yummylicious burgers...and whoaaah...got the best onion rings I've ever tasted. The plan of going out for coffee was postponed since some of us needed an early rest for the MMR Sportfest early next day.

Got up early for the Sportsfest. I'm going to have a meeting with ASCM's Alumni at the same venue. We planned to stay only after lunch and treat ourselves out in the mall since Lorrin doesn't have anything to do in the event, but surprisingly, he told me that the Laguna Team asked of him to play basketball for their team. I'm happy for him since I know that he loved the idea. But the day doesn't end as expected. He fell while doing some warm up with the team and as verybody calls for it... he got a *Sprain on his left foot.

He had a first-aid with the Medic Team, ate lunch and we headed to the hospital to have him x-rayed. Since his ankle is rapidly swelling, Lorrin can't drive any longer. Praise God for kuya Odie who willingly volunteered to drive for us. And at the ER, while waiting for the Ortho Specialist, thank God, Joms (a friend from COG) was there and assisted us... The x-ray result is negative from any fragments. His left foot and leg was supported with a white cement-like thing and a pad. He was also advised to stay home for a week or two... :)

Praise God for everything!

*A sprain (from the French espraindre - to wring) is an injury which occurs to ligaments caused by a sudden overstretching (for the muscle injury.)The ligament is usually only stretched, but sometimes it can be snapped, slightly torn, or ruptured, all of which are more serious and require longer to heal.

Family...Seafoods...Ice Cream...a whole lot of fun!

Papa already got some of his retirement money and treated us out at Dampa, Macapagal last night. The whole family was there, even Chayil who just turned 2 months last Oct 5. We reached the place at around 8:45 pm... Late for our regular dinner time, but we all still managed to have fun... :) So good to see and play with my nieces and nephews... I really miss them as they do miss me too... We took pictures and have lots of fun together. Until finally the food was set before us...grabe, haven't eaten seafoods that much in my entire life...shhhhh, all of them knows that I'm on my 2nd day of diet..heheheh :0. The foods are simply yummy! Better than the first one we tried (during Marvz Despedida) We enjoyed all of them: the shrimps in garlic butter sauce, sigang sa miso, camaron, calamares, grilled squid, crab in oyster sauce, tempura, and of course the baked tahong and scallops...two thumbs up! After eating, papa and mama gave us our share of their blessings... Unfortunately, Lorrin for the second time, came late. (I had his share already...hmmmm) He has to attend his practice and devotion with the team at COG. To keep me busy while waiting, I got the chance to bond with the kids...since it's seaside, we went nearer to the sea, and again took lots and lots of wacky, funny pictures. When Lorrin finally came, we just waited for him to finish his cold food...weeeeeeeeeeehhhhh, then we went off and drop by at Bluewave to have our fair share of ice cream. But what I've eaten is too much, that I can't take even a scoop of ice cream, so as lorrin.

What a great day with my family!

When God Made You...

25 years ago when God smiled, thought about me and gave breath to Lorrin. August 15, 1981, a healthy, big (headed...hihihih) boy was born. I can't thank the Lord enough today as we celebrate Lorrin's 25th birthday. I prepared a surprise party for him yesterday together with our COG's friends, who i know Lorrin would be too happy to be there... It's not that grand, but it's a celebration filled with love. I cooked her fave foods fettucine, chicken ala kieve, pork steak in barbeque sauce at the Wong's home and had a black forest from Red Ribbon. Big thanks goes to our friends from COG who helped me do all the preps. We had real fun till the clock strikes 12, and we all together shout a big happy birthday song...heheheh :) and of course a birthday would'nt be complete without gifts. I gave him the cheapest yet rewarding gift. I bought a big "alkansya"hahahaha! He knows the idea behind that gift. :)

His mom also prepared a salu-salo for him at home. Close friends and relatives were there. We had a sumptuous dinner at his house and a full body massage home-service as we ended the day.

In my heart, i will always be thankful to the Lord for you, Lorrin...always and forever.

WHEN GOD MADE YOU

Its always been a mystery to me,

How two hearts can come together

And love can last forever.

But now that I have found you I believe

That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.

So gone are all my questions about why,

And i've never been so sure of anything in my life

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.

I wonder if He knew everything I would need

Because he made all my dreams come true.

When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,

With all my heart I'll be there too.

And from this moment on I want you to know

I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.

So gone are all my questions about why

Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,

I wonder if He knew everythin I would need

Because He made all my dreams come true.

When God made you He must've been thinking about me.

He made the sun He made the moon,

To harmonize a perfect tune

One can't do without the other they just have to be together.

And that is how I know its true

Your'e for me and i'm for you

And my world just cant be right without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer

I've been praying

He must've knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

PRAISES

Overwhelming God's presence during our Praise & Worship.

A healthy new princess in the house...baby Chayil -Kayil-

Got a pair of new shoes and shirt *winks*

and a grande cream frap from Starbucks... love it!

Count your blessings and name them one by one... Thank you Lord :)

WELCOME HOME CHAYIL

Yesterday was Tita Josie's birthday (lorrin's mom). We had our dinner at his house together with his tita' s and cousins. We had a great time together though tita and I are on our 5th day of 1 month diet. Hmmm...preparing for Jr and Mhayies wedding day on Sept 9.

After some great time of picture taking, lorrin and i frove away to Imus Medical Center where Bong was admitted after she had a discharged at home. We rushed to get in there till 12 in the morning. The doctor said we still have to wait for a more CM's (i think its her cervics opening) as they call it. I was really afraid to see what was the doctor is doing to her to check on that, but it made me so happy when we heard baby Chayil's heartbeat inside mommy bong's tummy. Since there's no private room yet, we're not allowed to stay inside the ward area for long, so we decided to leave early.

I woke up almost 9:00 am, late for my practice. But thank God was able to practice for the Praise and Worship quite well compared to my previous practices...heheheh :) We were about to finish our practice when Marvin (bong's hubby) texted me that he finally saw Chayil. Meaning, the looooong wait is over. She had a CS delivery and was born a day before her mommy's birthday :) I got a teary-eyed for that news. I cant imagine my youngest sister, our old baby in the house giving birth to a new baby. *sigh* (can't imagine myself in her shoes). Time flies so fast. We're not babies anymore. We're grown-ups and has our fair share of stuggles, difficulties in life, but happy. I guess that's the blessing of those who trust in the Lord. Got so excited to see Chayil but I still have to do some stuffs for tomorrow's service. So I have to patiently wait for that time. Tita jo called and said we'll go to the hospital together instead....haaaay, I really wanna get outta here....

The house is ready to welcome our new baby princess.

Welcome Home Baby Chayil.

YIPEEEEE....MY BIRTHDAY

Your Birthdate: July 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

July 19 year 1978, 12:10 am at Fabella Memorial Hospital, I was declared as the 2nd largest baby born that time. I can't imagine how happy my parents was... *winks* If only I have the magic to turn back time, I would love to see my parents, how happy they were when God gave me to them... I wanna know how they feel when they feel me breathing in the very palm of their hands... I wanna see their eyes the first time they saw me sleeping right in front of my mom's chest... I wanna hear the first word they spoke when they heard me crying in my father's arms... I wanna see the magic.

We celebrated my birthday at home. With Lorrin and my family, we ended up the day happy and Im so blessed to have another year with my family. They're my precious treasure.

Lorrin made a video for me as his gift to me featuring the song, GROW OLD WITH YOU... *winks*

WHAT'S IN THE 18th?

I greeted lorrin a happy 91st monthsarry exactly 12am. Though I wasn't able to prepare anything special for him, I know he values my remembrance of the day. (huh, justified?)... Since today is a special day, we planned to have our dinner with a couple of friends tonight and be together till 12am (my birthday *winks*) i just loved the idea of him as the first one to greet me on that special day. OMG I'm turning 2? and that doesn't make me feel good. I'm getting old. I hate it... But anyway it still has to come and I have to be thankful to the Lord for that and also my parents...I owe so much from them. Hope I gotta chance to treat them out soon...

Spend the whole rainy day in the shop. There's only few customers from Lasalle since it's their exam week. So I gotta a chance to chat with lala again. I'm thankful coz we have our yahoo groups already. Lala created an account (http://barubalgroopee@yahoogroups.com) so we can update each other (highschool friends). Big applause for this bitchy yet intellectual gal...

I supposed to have my regular facial with friend Mei today, but I can't. Too bad it's raining and have nobody to leave the shop with. I called Lorrin if I'm gonna cook dinner, since our dinner with friends will not be pursued. Lorrin and some friends will have overnightt in the shop instead for some important thingy...huh! But he said I dont have to, coz we'll have our dinner in the church. Again...change of plans. The overnight is in the church. So no more "dream birthday" for me. I'm thinking of going home early. But it's raining so I guess have to wait patiently and stay happy...as i supposed to...

Hoping a blessed tomorrow. :)

"FALSE SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY"

Today is my eldest sister's (My) birthday :) . Too bad, we're both sick today. :( As much as I wanted to go home and be with them, not only of the celebration but I'm getting too sensitive when I'm sick...much as I needed to stay in the shop. Too many things are need to be done. Since lorrin's mom is coming home on Friday, I need to do my report in almost everything concerning the shop. The more the things I need to accomplish, the more I'm lazy to get up and work. Good thing, tita agnes and kids are here, so I have many hands to do things for me...heheheh :) I'm kinda spoiled when tita agnes's here... She cooks for me and take good care of almost everything I need. Thank God for her! But lorrin, this past few days got preoccupied with so many things and more often than not remembers me... :( But i understand...ministry and calling and personal concerns sometimes joggled. I thank God also for the word I've received this morning from Joel Osteen of Lakewood Ministry. He taught about "false sense of responsibility". It's the feeling of wanting to please a person. Always giving, encouraging, rescuing kind of person. He says that God doesn't want us to sacrifice our own happiness to keep somebody else happy. That if we freed ourselves from that and give those people to the hands of God, we'll not only have more time and energy , but we'll be happier and better able to fulfill God's plan in our lives.

I may not able to see my family today, but I was able to end my day happy though. I finished all the task in the church. I prepared my lesson since I'll be teaching a three-month course in the church, starting Sunday. I finished Pastor Carl's sermon powerpoint presentation and was able to edit some Dave's pictures and was able to post again on my blog...hihihihi

happy day! :)

THE ATTITUDE OF THE THREE HAIRS

There was once a woman who woke up one morning, looked in themirror and noticed she had only three hairs on her head."Well," she said, "I think I'll braid my hair today," so she did and she had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and saw she hadonly two hairs on her head."HMM," she said, "I think I'll part my hair down the middletoday," and she did and she had a grand day.

The next morning she woke up, looked in the mirror and saw shehad only one hair left on her head."Well," she said, "Today I'm going to wear my hair in a ponytail." So she did and it was a fun, fun day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that there wasn't a single hair on her head."YEAH!" she exclaimed, "I don't have to fix my hair today!"

Remember you may not be able to control what someone says or does or some of the situations that life throws you, but you can sure control the way you react. *big YES to that!*

RAINY DAYS...

It's raining!

It's pouring!

Gosh...the whole week is raining...and that makes me sick! Have a bad cough and not feeling well. Im cold and blue. Dont know exactly why am I feeling so low these days. I always love the cold feeling brought about by the rain, sneaking through the window, watching the pouring rain and feeling the air brushing through my face...but not now. Gloomy and bedazzled by which I dont know. And what makes it more difficult is...I dont want to know why am I feeling this creepy mood... *sigh* Im lazy and numb! All I want to do is to sleep all day and all night!!! Huh! lazy bum!

Hoping for a sunny tommorow :)

YOUR WORTH

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, heasked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?”Still the hands went into the air.My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE. You are special- Don’t EVER forget it."

Count your blessings, not your problems.

And remember: amateurs built the ark...

professionals built the Titanic.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

FRIENDS WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS

I'm so happy that after the long pain in the neck planning of our highschool friends get together, we finally had our best time together last Saturday. I did'nt have the best morning and afternoon that day, yet I did have the best night! I got to see my friends so dear to me.

I'm happy to see ... :) :) :) :) :)

***Tintin( Cristina Lorenzo) very pretty wife now resides in AbuDhabi. She's not going to have a baby anymore, but I know they're going to have a successful family someday.

***Elay (Jael Lastra) still single but very pretty and a successful MedRep at Pfizer Phil.

***Mau (Maureen Cernechez) also a very pretty single lady. Hmm...no boyfriend yet, but she's going to have one... soon :)

***Lala (Shiela Mariano) this girl changed alot. She's now a very mature and elegant lady. A very successful ROHM girl. Still single and a hopefull romantic... hope to find her way back to ...

***Jojo (Job Dela Cruz) grabe...cooks so great! He did all the cooking. We're stuffed with his chicken yakitori, caldereta, kebab and mussels with garlic butter sauce. Also a successful computer man...related to Lala...huh? connections????? pleassssssseeee...

***Onat (Jonathan Marcelo) still the reserved gentleman...huh? soooo makulit yet gentleman nga! though he irritated us during our plannings, he showed himself naman with a good shot. He helped with the grilled stuffs. In a relationship and working or should i say managing...hehehe

***Toto (Archie Sandel) Men, I salute this guy... Married and has kids. Pass through so many hardships, yet stood strong amidst all testings and ...temptations? (joke) after that overnight he stil needs to work...without sleep! Friend, keep it up! You'll be okay soon...

***Renan ( Renante Roxas) still, like Jonathan a reserved gentleman. You can count the all the words he can say...but a true boyfriend to most girls...hahahahaha (peace out!)

Haaay...time flies so fast! We muse over all the memories... We all had our good share. The good and the bad, to the most embarassing to the most outstanding. And we ended the day happy. So happy for each other. We may never know when we're going to see each other, but one thing I now is for sure... FRIENDS WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS...

I love you guys!!!

PACKING UPS

Finally, we're through with our get together planning...and the much awaited day was set tomorrow. I'm now packing all the things needed since I'm the only one allowed to bring special someone...heheheh :) its because lorrin has his car...so he volunteered to be our driver...*winks*. The place are final, Halfway Resort and most of the invited sent their confirmation....

I'm excited to see them...hehehe! Why? of course after ten long years I'm going to see my friends... and :) I assigned each them to buy me twister fries and chicken nuggets since i assigned them to meet at McDonalds Coastal Mall.... :)

Can't wait to see ya guys!!!

I CAN ONLY IMAGINE

"I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by Your side...
I can only imagine, what my eyes will see,
When Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
I can only imagine, when that day comes,
When I find myself standing in the Son!
I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship
You!I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!! Only imagine!!!I can only imagine.
I can only imagine, when all I do is forever, forever worship You!I can only imagine."


This song really touches my heart... Can't wait for that moment to come... Standng in awe in the presence of Jesus... soon

TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE

I wasn't able to post yesterday since I got preoccupied with students keep coming in our shop. I didn't know that it's the first day of class. I wasn't able to post some of our Back to School Promo. Anyway here's some bits of yesterday:

*Lorrin's off today. He supposed to do some fixing in all computers, but he needs to go to the bank and to Makati to pay some overdue bills...hehehe

*I have my first day girl thing. And I hate the uncomfortbale feeling. Still wishing that someday boys will have this...and no pain for girls :)

*We have visitors from the church and relatives. (Lolo Lawin with son, Ate joan with 3 kids, Daniel and Aio)... wonderin' why NOW????????

*Have to close the shop at 6:30. We have our Praise and Worship Monthly Fellowship. I'm not into the go go mood, but we need to be there. Ate gigi expect of us greatly... Anyway, we had real good time, sharing, praying, planning and rebuking each other...lol. Lorrin shared a wonderful revelations and thought to ponder as a worship minister.

*ended the night with ache somewhere in my tummy and had a bad cold.

*I'm not feeling well. :(

Welcome Tuesday with a smile though I'm still in pain. Lorrin said he'll take another off to finish what's supposed to be done by yesterday. Though I'm not feeling well, I have to get up and cook for our lunch. After all these, I lay my back and gotcha...fell asleep :( Good thing Lorrin is in his best mood... took care of me and pampered me with lots of things...

I remember my favorite book given to me by Sam Sade, my friend and my mentor, Tuesdays with Morrie. It' s about learning every Tuesday with is teacher, mentor and a friend. Today is no ordinary Tuesday, I learned a noble thing: to love and to be loved. What a great day!!!

SUNDAY FUN!

While waiting for my sister, I was able to see also Tintin, my highschool buddy who came from AbuDhabbi only last Tuesday. Saturday shopping with my sister Bong is fun. We got home a little late, there's no enough strength left for us to start decaorating the room for the baby Shower. I slept with my nephews and niece... they missed me a lot as much as I missed them. As expected, never-ending story telling till dawn. When the babies asleep, Lorrin called...to drop his nytnyt... A few hours after, Jed cries for tootacahe... I have to stay awake since I was with them. After consoling and a little medication I know, he finally slept. While I was left awake till 6am. Wasn't able to attend the church this morning... co'z I woke up late. My mom's already gone for church when I woke up. I ended up home alone with my nephew Jireh. We cleaned the house, decorated the room and fill it with pink and white balloons (no purple balloon for me). Jireh blew-up 200 pieces balloons...huh! Sigh of relief when we're done... :)

My sister Myleen cooked her specialty TACOS and yummy spaghetti

My mum her masterpiece SIOMAI and dips

I cooked my "everybody's favorite" CHICKEN ALA KIEV with garlic butter sauce

with popcorn, some dips and fave juice...we're done!

We started the program late...since it rained that afternoon. The program did well as ate bel, our coordinator did her job well done..as usual. She's kinda irritated because of Lorrin's some irritating lines... :) I'm happy that Mei, a friend from COG was there too.

After that fun-filled shower, Lorrin, myself and Mei rushed to Holy Trinity Chapel in Sucat for the wake of ate Gigi's dad who just passed away. The rest of COG's friends are waiting for us...since they wanna leave na and go to MOA (SM Mall of Asia) after. So after few minutes since we arrived, some friends got up and waved to go. I thought we gonna go with them too, but Lorrin said we still need to stay a little more time (since we came late) with ate g and the family...so Mei and I waited. Good thing ate edith is there to entertain us. Finally Lorrin told us we'll go... So off we go to MOA.

MOA is big. I mean really BIG.

We got lost for several times finding our friends who went ahead. That we find ourselves searching for the mall's map. Finally we got to see them in a chinese resto. The 3 of us didnt eat as we are still stuffed. But I cant let that day passed without my McNuggets and Twister fries treat. Lorrin and I got it for myself before we headed to the Moviehouse. We wanted to try the iMax thing, but our friends already had a ticket for a regular movie. We watched CHAOS. Ei... you cant just enter MOA's cinema anytime you want. You have to wait outside til the movie is finished and has to wait for the people to come out first before you can come in. There are also some restrictions on food. I think that's a good point that MOA is implementing... Disciplining Filipinos...waiting for your turn... :) The movie is good. I just dont like the ending :( bitin! We're only eleven inside... feelin' lucky *winks* or the moviegoers doesnt like the film. As they're still rushing to watch XMen3. We had the last full show but we're still in the mood to go somewherelse. We planned to go for a coffee at Starbucks but unfortunately the shop's already close. So we finally decided we'll go home...

What a day!!!

WEEK-END CRAVINGS

I didn’t have my dinner last night coz all I want to eat is the chicken mcnuggets and twister fries from McDonald. But since we don't have them, :( I console myself with a bag of sweetened and salted popcorn and a glass of coke. Lorrin said I’ll have my McDonalds tomorrow delivered by lunch time. So the night had passed and morning comes. I woke up (9:30 am) with the same vigor though I slept late last night. I'm so excited to start the day, coz I'll be coming home tonight... I'm going to see my nephews (Jireh and Jed) and my niece (Thea). I’m going to see my mom and my sisters who are always excited to see me and tell me their stories... My sister bong requested me to be home tonight. I need to go with her to the mall for some items and food stuff for her Baby Shower sched tomorrow afternoon... We also need to do decorations and fill the room with pink and purple balloons (my favorite part and my request *winks*) I have a piece of peanut butter glaze from Go Nuts Donuts, glass of water and a praise and worship video from Lakewood Church as my breakfast...hihihihi :) Lakewood Worship Time is awesome! I want to have that same zealousness and passion as that of the whole Team. *sigh* I know it'll be hard for me but nothing's impossible with God! As I was contemplating with the song, I said to myself, I'll be leading worship for the Lord even when I’m 90 years old. I don’t know how, but I know it'll be...

I was kinda disappointed when Lorrin called the McDonalds Delivery, after trying i think 3 contact numbers, he put down the phone, and I got the message. No chicken nuggets and fries for me today. He said he was being transferred to one person to another and when he finally reached the one here in dasma, he was asked so many questions (not the usual ones) that irritates him. :( After that call, he needs to go and have his lesson/training at COG. He said he'll buy for me tonight, but, grrr... I'm leaving late afternoon. Anyway, I can buy them as soon as I get outta here... hehehehee :0 I promise myself to have lots of 'em later.... So Ronald McDonald here I come!!!!

<GET TOGETHER UPDATES>

I was able to chat with Tintin Lorenzo. She arrived last Tuesday from Abu Dhabi. We talked about our Get Together Plans. I already found a perfect place.

HALFWAY RESORT (along Niog)

3500 (only 3300 for me)

20 persons

2 big aircon rms (with 2 bed and bathroom)

1 karaoke rm

kitchen

medium size pool

spacious parking lot

But there's a sudden change in our plans. Since some of them still not giving thier confirmation yet, Lala said we'll just go to Dampa Macapagal and then Baywalk or Libis instead... Tiring but I have to bear with these people...and besides I love them... :)

Wishing to finish the plan...

SOON!!! please.....................................

BABY SHOWER FOR CHAYIL

We're all excited for the arrival of our new princess in the house. She's coming on the 20th of August. For quite sometime, some friends are eager to help this new mom (my youngest sister) with some tips and cautions as they say. That's why Bel, Lanie and I preapred a shower for our dear Chayil on Sunday. Invitations are out, pink and purple balloons will fill the baby's room, burritos, salads and dips are flowing and of course friends from north to south are coming... This is my first time to organize a baby shower, that makes me nervous yet excited. Can't wait for the day!!!

THERE'S NO SACRIFICE LEFT...

I woke up a little bit heavy...maybe because of the last night-out I had. But then I still managed to open my eyes with thanksgiving and praises to the Lord. And I'm glad coz I already found my favorite song entitled COMPLETE by Andrew Ulugia. For quite sometime, I've been looking for that in the net and available Cd's but unfortunately, can't find it. Until I heard it when Lorrin is listening to the line-up he needs to practice. The song says it all... our completeness can only be found in Jesus. With that song playing in the computer, the Lord brought me again in the Book of Hebrews. Christ died once and offered sacrifice once and for all. That if His people purposelly keep on sinning, there's no sacrifice left, but a terrifying judgment when He comes. Praise God for His continuous guidance and reminders to us His people. It just show that His love is everlasting.

FULFILLING PROMISES CAN HEAL... :)

Though I was sick night of Tuesday and the whole day of Wednesday, Lorrin's promise to treat me out Wednesday night was accomplished. Im still feeling dizzy when he arrived from work. With his smile and the excitement to bring me out, I feel so special. So I rushed to get myself fixed!

We went to his aunt first to bring his mountainous dirty clothes. Just we thought we need to bring "pasalubong", I said maybe we could just bring his two cousins with us. With a bit hesitation (coz after for so long, we have'nt had the time to go out na kami lang dalawa), I know that would be great since the kids did'nt experience moviehouse eversince. Finally, Lorrin thought we'll just buy them an ice cream, which I think we'll make them happy too... and we decided to bring them out next time na lang.

So we headed on our way... as usual ATC, our favorite moviehouse. We bought some food stuff at Gloria Maris and our favorite Smokeys then we went on... XMen3! I'm not an XMen fanatic, but I loved the movie so much. Everything is perfect, the story, the effects are awesome! That makes me want to watch it again... But Lorrin said it's enough! With my crappy sad face, I stood up for the National Anthem, looking straight on the wide screen. After that as I leaned towards his direction, he's nowhere to sight. I know it's just another Lorrin's trick. So I went out all by myself, planning to go where we parked the car. But before it's too late, he showed up, laughing and grinning at the same time! He did well in teasing me...that's his mastery... grrr! He just love that, knowing that after he satisfied himself with that, he needs to make me feel alright again. So, to make "bawi", he offered me another movie. I said YES! but he knows LFS won't be of help to me since I'm already sleepy. So we went for a coffee instead at Starbucks Madrigal. Where I had my choco frap, his hot choco and our fun of being together... and who said I'm sick???

I loved the day!!!

LOVING MONDAY!

I shaved-off my hairy legs. I'm not used to it, but ei, I love the soft feeling of 'em now... :) Lorrin told me I should'nt do that again... I cooked Carbonara (my fave) and chicken ala kiev today... The whole rainy Monday stuffed me with lots of eating and resting and fun!.... *winks*

WORSHIP DAY

I woke up with a smile and great enthusiasm today! I'll be leading the Praise and Worship in the church. The Lord is so good... He gave me His Word in the book of Hebrews before I slept last night. It's about confidence in entering the holy place of God. That I have the complete freedom to go in that by means of the death of Jesus. So when I woke up, I have all the confidence to lead God's people in worship. And indeed, the Lord did not failed us! We had a great time of worship... though I saw some cold faces, that doesnt change my mood to worship the King Most High. I lead with much vigor not because I preapred so much, but because I'll be shouting God's fame and God's glory... Declaring His goodness and His power. I was able to exhort about the movie Da Vinci Code... a movie that tries to dismantle the faith of Christians. But whatever that movie is trying to convey, God will still be my God...nothing can change that! At this point, the Lord asked me a question like that of He asked to Peter,

Who do you say that I'am?

I simply said..

"YOU ARE MY GOD, MY ONE AND TRUE GOD, DIED, RISEN AGAIN and will COME SOON TO REIGN FOR ETERNITY!"

...AND THE ANGELS REJOICES!

I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents."Luke 15:10

It was a sunny Wednesday, when I saw Kris (regular customer in our Internet Cafe) and invited him and his friend Glenn (also another DOTA [computer game] addict) to come with me in the church on Friday in a mini-concert and play entitled ANGKLA. The idea of bringing someone (non-christian) with me does not come to my senses, not until I saw Kris that afternoon. I jokingly told them that I want them to go with me. Without thinking twice, they agreed and gave their confirmation to come. But Thursday comes...reasons are starting to come up. Glenn said that he still need to enrol and maybe, he'll be late and more so, tired to go. Kris said that he won't go without Glenn. But I did not entertain any of these scheme that I know the enemy is doing. I keep on reminding them and insisting that they should come. I come up with an idea to treat them dinner after. But instead they want a free game in exchange of my invitation. And then we call it a DEAL! The whole Friday afternoon, I keep contemplating on the thought if I'm going to close the shop or not... Honestly I'm a bit hesitant to go coz of the sales we'll missed! But ei... the Lord rebuked me the last minute... (actually the whole time I'm thinking about that, the Lord is already rebuking me...just simply dont want to hear Him...) What compares to the glory God will receive if sinners come into repentance...*sigh* PRAISE GOD! After some "kulitan" with these two...we're finally made our way going to the church... Kris told me till what time we need to be there, I told only till 7pm. So we went.

We arrived to the church at 5:20, as we were told it'll start at 5:30 ( for few Sundays, the church distributed tickets for the visitors, but I didnt get any since I dont have plans to bring any). People are keep coming to the church. So many people are already set inside, but we still need to get our ticket...so we have to wait. Finally, we have it and rushed to get inside to have front row seats (just hoping!) I'm glad we find the 2nd row from the right corner. Unfortunately, the program did'nt start on time. The supposed to be 5:30 became 6:30 because of the many people responded to the invitation, that the church can't contain them anymore. They have to use the balcony area for the first time...since it's still not functional. The 7:00 pm I promised is becoming impossible... The guys with me is keep reminding me of the time...and obviously they're getting bored...So i have to come up with another idea for them to have more patience. Ok, I need to allow them to play all you can after the activity...even without dinner. At last the program started. At first they're enjoying the show..since they're seeing Lorrin playing the keyboard and they love the music being played...but later on get used to the music, and later on with the play. I just keep praying to the Lord that it is His time now...as I did everything already. The 2hour performance (music and play) is a 2hour counting of hours left and "kulitan"... But the time came for the Lord to do His move.

When Ptr. Anthony is speaking about his father, I know the Word is already ministering to the boys sitting beside me. When the pastor asked those who would want to have a relationship with the Lord...I heard the most beautiful word I'm waiting...Glenn said to Kris,

"punta tayo"...

hearing that touches my heart and I moved the chair in front of me and gave way to them. But Glenn went ahead and Kris hesitated first...but I keep praying...when I felt the moving of the one sitting beside me, I opened my eyes to see that Kris is also heading in front. What a joy, a real joy! I cried and lift my hands to the Lord... I saw the sincerity in their hearts, as Kris removed his hat while praying...I was touched! Truly only the Lord holds our lives, our hearts and our minds. He just simply told me, "my child, I know my business". With that, I'm one, with the millions of angels rejoicing for these souls who accepted Him as personal Savior. After the altar call and have our free snacks ( the two is enjoying every bite).

I ask them we'll go... and I'll be giving them their free play all you can, Kris while eating his snacks said,

" Bakit ba nagmamadali."

ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD! *winks*

NEVER ENDING GET TOGETHER PLAN

Since Monday when Tintin (Cristina Lorenzo, from Abu Dhabi) buzz me in my YM, we're already planning a get together for our circle of friends... We pulled Lala (Shiela Mariano) to help us out organize the plan...From then on, we set every details..the three of us! We're able to contact some of our friends...some are soooooo excited while some are still in the shaggy mood to come...tsk..tsk...because of the many reasons that made us really feel bad. Anyway, we thought of doing overnight in a private pool here in Cavite on the 17th of June (in favor of tintin :)... The thought of seeing each other, excites me. Till now we're still planning... and we really dont know where we heading to if these guys continue with their unending request and reasons...grrrrr!

But inspite of all these pain in the neck...

... I'm happy coz after 7 loooong years of not seeing each other, I'm going to see my highschool friends... esp tintin and lala... I'm excited to hug you guys!

... I thank God for Job...hehehe :) he promised to give his all support to us. He even promised to cook sumptuous dishes...kebab and other grilled stuff...yummmmy

... Lala will cook her best Italian Spaghetti

... Tintin can go swimming after a major operation and

... I can have all the reason to get excited coz I'm going to be the "bunso" and the "huggable bear" and the "spoiled but not brat" of the group again.... whew *winks* :)...

Cant wait to that day! *sigh*

Hope we can finally finish the plan...

DO YOU SMELL THAT?

When God opened the windows of heaven this morning, He blessed me with this story...

Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news. That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing. At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature. Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs.

"I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindly as he could.

"There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one"
Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived. She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on.
"No! No!" was all Diana could say.
She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four. Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away. But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love. All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl. There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger. But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there.
At last, when Dana turned two months old, her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time. And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted. Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life.
She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story. One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving, Texas, Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing. As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent. Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked,

"Do you smell that?"
Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied,

"Yes, it smells like rain."
Dana closed her eyes and again asked,

"Do you smell that?"
Once again, her mother replied,

"Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain."
Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced,

"No, it smells like Him.
It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."
Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children. Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along. During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her,

God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well.

WITH ALL I' AM

Into Your hands

I commit again

With all I'am

For You Lord

You hold my world

In the palm of Your hand

And I'am Yours

Forever

Jesus I believe in You

Jesus I belong to You

You're the reason that I live

The reason that I sing

With all I'am

I'll walk with You

Wherever You go

Through tears and joy

I'll trust in You

And I will live

In all of Your ways

Your promises

Forever

THANK GOD FOR THESE LITTLE ANGELS

I was blessed to have nephews and niece's so cute and sweet.I always love to see them, play with them and fool them around. :) The thought of having them in our lives made me smile in times of difficulties and sadness. They are God's precious gift to us!

Jireh, the eldest among them, is so nice. He grew up in my hands. I changed his diapers, give him a bath, bring him to the pedia, sleep with him, cry when he's sick and laugh out loud when he learn something new as a baby. He grew up as a very fine little boy. He knows what he wants and what he'll become someday. He dance so well. And cries when somebody we love is sick. He's very sensitive...like me...nyahahahah. I remember one time, I have to discipline him for he did something awful to his brother. We went inside my room, lights off, I asked him to kneel and tell me what happened. Then with a strong voice he told me the story, and later on the strong voice became soft, and when I ask him to pray to the Lord asking for forgiveness, he hesitated, but after a little while he run to me with his knees, crying so hard, he prayed....(that's my boy! and I'm really proud of him) He loves staying with me, though he's afraid of me. I love you kuya! You'll always be tita Leng's baby.

Thea is my princess. This girl amazes us with her good voice...of course like her mom, and kinda snob huh! She knows almost every song aired in televisions and radios. She has a big tummy and a big butt...hihihi, i love her long straight hair and smiles that kills us. She loves picture takings...and always give her best shot. She's 5 now and can read as fast as i can...arrrgh! She loves her dolls and bears, that she almost bring all of them wherever she goes. And mind you, this little girl can story tell like a lola who sits on a rocking chair with different voices, huh! She loves story telling so much. And of course, she made us all proud when she graduated in the Preparatory class with honors. I love you my Princess! Keep up the good work!

And of course, there is this baby Jed! Awarded as the Most Prayerful in his Kindergarten class. This baby can really turn your world upside down when he ask you questions we never know where in the world you can find the answer. Having him home is like living with a little prophet at home...yeah! Once in a while he'll talk something we just ignore, but later on, we'll find out what he's telling is true. He loves to pray so much...even in the crowd! And he prayed with meaning, with his heart. Jed loves everybody in the house to be around. He can sing and dance with his own music he created. We all believed that he has place in the minsitry of God someday!

Baby Chayil is still in her mommy's womb! But we know she's excited to get out in there and see us. We're loving her though we have'nt seen her yet. She eat a lot inside mommy's tummy. And kicks and punches a lot...like her daddy! We know she's one another precious blessing to us... and we're all excited to see her and be a blessing to her as well. See you soon our baby Chayil!

Everyday with them is a whole lot fun and excitement. Once in a while they got hurt, a little while they cry, a little while they'll laugh... I think that's the magic that the Lord wants us to have as adults. To have a mind like that of little children. No pretensions, no worries. They believe without a doubt. I can't thank the Lord enough for these little blessings He blessed me to have.

21 CHARACTERISTICS I PRAYED TO BE MY MAN

Christian

Good Hand Writing

Can sing

Can play music

Tall

Educated

Responsible

Faithful

Sweet

Intelligent

Thoughtful

Artist

Loving

Nice hair

Kind

Clean Teeth

Generous

Patient

Principled

Love my family

Good in Math

I made this list when I was a grade V pupil. Discouraged by the many struggles that my mom is going through because of my father, I thought of building my own imaginary family. I just get a pen and paper, draw a family and write these things... All my life I never prayed or rush to get into a relationship. It just happen... Like a magic. I never tried to find the right one, he just came in. I never tried to find him, he found me.

A KING DIED FOR ME!

I'm forgiven because

You we're forsaken

I'm accepted

You we're condemned

And I'm alive and well

Your Spirit is within me

Because You died and rose again

Amazing love

How can it be

That You my King would die for me

Amazing love

I know it's true

It's my joy to honor You

In all I do

I worship You

You are my King!

The Lord brought me in this song this morning.

I can't thank Him enough for what He has done for me at the cross.

He made me realize the following simple things yet, we hardly find ourselves doing them for the Lord.

MY QUESTION

What if He said He does'nt care for me?

What if He said He does'nt have time to do that?

What if He said He quit on me?

What if He said my sins are too many to bear?

What if He said He does'nt wanna die?

What if He said He does'nt love me?

What if...?

CHRIST ANSWER

I care for you.

I have all my time for you.

I will never quit on you.

I keep no record of sins.

I died for you. And I'm willing to do it again.

I love you.

MY PROMISE

I will take care of Your great Name. Never to put you in shame.

I will have all my time for You. Worshipping you will be my lifestyle.

I will never quit in this life. For I am more than conqueror through Christ Jesus.

I will, by the grace of God, never add up sins at the back of the cross.

I will die for You Lord. Not for anyone else.

I will love You Lord with all of ny heart, soul and strength.

Thank You Lord for Your amazing love to us. For humbling Yourself even to the point of death. Always remind me of the cross. When things are getting tough, remind me of the King who bears the cross containing my sins... Let me love You Lord each day!

MY BESTFRIEND, MY MIRACLE, MY LOVE

Year 1997 when i first saw LORRIN playing with his keyboard in the church. Without much attention, i knew he took noticed of me while I'm busy consoling a kid with a bleeding finger. I was just a new member of that church then while he's one of the pioneer and the only keyboard player. I became an active member and soon joined them in the Praise and Worship Team where i was trained to become a Worship Leader. It requires a lot of my patience but a great privelege though. There are times I really cried when my paranoia strikes thinking that the musicians are making fun of my off-tone voice...and Lorrin is one of them. Days have passed and we got used in seeing each other, as we are required to do practices and attend all functions of the church. Aside from being one of the Worship leader, i was also assigned to handle the kids ministry. The church encourages me to go Bible school and pursue Christian Education. While my knowledge in spiritual things grew, my responsibility in the church also grew. I was appointed as a Youth Leader. Responsible in helping the young member of the church to grow in the knowledge of Christ by providing activities and a lot of fellowship. Soon Lorrin and I became friends and calls me "ate". After a while, actively doing our ministries, Lorrin became close to one of our young people and soon settle in a relationship. Our friendship never stop then. We continue to be friends and we get even closer to each other. More often he comes to me and seek for advices, the many how to's in a relationship. I've never been to any boy-girl relationship then, but i believe God has prepared me and taught me many wonderful ideal things as regards to that. I stood as a friend and a good counselor to them (i believe so *winks*). As friends, going home together is our usual activity. We'll bring his girlfriend home first and then he'll bring me home after. One night after that usual walk of bringing me home, i laid my back and fall asleep. In the middle of the night I was awaken with tears falling in my cheeks. I dont have anything in mind but LORRIN. I'm hurting! Confused of what I'm feeling towards him, I prayed. "Lord if this is not from you, please remove it now. But if this is what you want for me and this is from you, then let it grow." Months, weeks, days have passed, i kept that prayer in me and my God alone. I never tried to open that thing to anyone. I continue to be friends with them and grow with them. But due to the many problems arise in the relationship he has, after few months he broke up with his girlfriend. I can't do anything but keep silent. His girlfriend who happened to be my closest friend, always seek me and ask me to help her to win him back. Honestly I tried. But it did'nt work. The trust that binds them, was broken. He found out that his girl cheated him.

My life continues... Study and ministry and my relationship to the Lord is my utmost priority. I was blessed to become a school scholar then, so i have to make good in my study and my calling. So many people has blessed me with their encouragements and finances. I cannot forget NANAY VALENG, an old-gray-haired woman of God who blessed me with my first love gift. She called me before that sunday service starts and inserted in my closed-hand a hundred peso bill. I never forget her smile with a meaning that i should'nt let anyone know. I smiled back to her with a promise, I never will. After the service, I came to her and prayed and speak blessing to her and her family.

Being a bible school student is'nt that easy. The grace of God comes to the obedient and a hard working one. There are many sleepless nights of memorizing verses, chapters from the Bible, doing preaching outlines, never ending research works, and the looong and winding road I have to travel everyday. From Cavite, I have to be patient for the 2-hours travel time going to Makati. To lessen the stress I'm getting from that 2-hours travel time, I gladly accepted Kuya Beltran's invitation to travel with him everyday, as he's also working in Makati. We had real great time together. When Lorrin heard about that, he later joined us in our everyday travel. He's a sophomore then in Mapua, taking up ECE. Every morning, he'll go to my house (without knocking on the door...he's too shy to do that, then) to pick me up and then we'll go to kuya beltran's. That brings us into a more deeper friendship. Until one day, after a day in school, he went to my school not just to see me, but to pick me up and go back to Cavite with him. I never forget that day. I was wearing the school blue foundation day t-shirt and jeans. We went to Glorietta IV, eat and take a glimpse in a museum displayed in the activity area. We went home together with a happy heart. Things are getting closer for us yet confusing to me. The thought of him makes me more excited to wake up each morning and patiently wait for the end of the day. One night as I was having my devotion with the Lord, I made a deal with Him. I said, " Lord, things are getting hard for me, I know I love him, and he shows real concern for me and I like him more that way. But until when we'll be like this? I want him to know that I do love him. But he never said a word if he feels the same way i feel. Tomorrow, if he talk to me and say even just a word regarding what he feels about us, i dont care if he feels the same or not, I just need him to open up, I will tell him what I feel." Then I have a goodnight rest and woke up with the same excitement, yet nervous this time. When the phone rang (he had an analogue celphone that time, his way of knocking the door), I knew he's there. I put on my best smile and opened the door and I saw him with his black two-fold umbrella (it's raining!) with his best smile too. As he walked nearer to me, my heart doubles it's beat. He never said a word but instead pull me nearer to him as i dont have my umbrella, then we headed towards kuya beltran's. Though we walk side by side that I almost feel his breath brushing through my hair, silence is between us. I never said a word. Then he broke that silence. When he opened his mouth, my heart beats so fast, I can't wait to hear what's he's going to say next. He said, with a soft-nervous voice, "hmm, what about us?" That question paralyzed me, that I want to go back home and feel every word he said. But then I have to go on and face the reality of the deal I made with the Lord last night. As we're getting nearer to Kuya Beltran's, we found ourselves telling each other what we feel. He never said that he love me, neither do I. We just settle that we'll pray about it and we'll continue to be friends until such time we know that it's time for us to settle into a more deeper relationship.

We continue with our daily travel, the three of us. Soon, the three became two. Kuya Beltran shifted schedules and Lorrin moved from Mapua to AMA Makati, that made me more accesible to him. He took care of me. Requiring me to eat more than three meals a day. Bringing me medicine when I'm sick. Never misses to do a note or a letter for me, appreciating everything in me. Doing extra things for my family and friends, doing my projects and a whole lot more! He became my bestfriend. Who practically knows everything about me. When I'm hurt, happy, sad and mad! After a while, consistent in his daily dosage of caring me.Lorrin and I finally came to the realization that we need and love each other.

Rainy afternoon of December 18, 1998, together with kuya Micos ( now Ptr. Carlito ) we went to the domestic airpot to get the body of his youngest sister who died in the province. Lorrin and I had to wait outside (in the guardhouse) as Kuya Micos personally need to get her sister inside. The rain never stop pouring that day. We sat in the bench in front of the guardhouse when Lorrin finally took the chance, he leaned over me and whispered, "I love you." and took my hand and gently kiss them. I've never been into a relationship before that i dont know how will I respond. With my heart beating fast like the pouring rain, I answered back, "I love you with God's perfect love." The guard who maybe not heard what we're talking about, but see and feel the love we're sharing, sang aloud a song of love. I can't believe to myself that it's really happening to me. We never search to see and fall for each other, we just find ourselves there, loving each other. As Lorrin pulled me closer to him, i leaned close to his heart, feeling each beat, I feel something inside of me I've never felt in my whole life. A feeling that describes a new Me. That time on, I've found something wonderful inside of me, the ability to give my heart 2 someone. It's like a miracle! He helped me 2 learn that I want him in my life 4ever, & that he is someone that I cannot live without. Since that moment he changed my life for the better & enhanced my world. He made me feel more special than I've ever felt in my entire life, & given me moments that I will treasure forever.

God has been so good to us! We passed through hard test in life. Once in a while we fall, fail and wanted to quit. But praise be to God, with His grace and love abounding in us, He see us through. We've been together for almost 8 years now, yet the Lord never failed us! He never missed a day of blessing us with his love. And now, I wanted to praise God for another height of maturity He's bringing us together. I praise Him for allowing me to have Lorrin in my life. Who's not only loving me to love him more, but loving me to love God more. Forever, I will be grateful to the Lord for giving me a bestfriend, a miracle and a love in one person named LORRIN LOPEZ LINGCASO, first grandchild of Nanay Valeng.

TO MY BESTFRIEND, MIRACLE AND LOVE

Beacuse of you and your love,

I am very grateful to have met you,

gotten to know u,

& to have fallen in love with you.

I look forward to the times we'll spend together,

both the good and the bad,

as they will help us grow and learn to appreciate each other more.

I have dreams and hopes for the future,

& they will be happy as long as you are by my side.

I want to fall asleep with you,

wake up next to you,

laugh with you,

& cry with you…

I want to grow old with you.

I promise to support you in every aspect of our lives,

to be faithful,

& most of all to love you.

You are my every dream come true.

I LOVE YOU!

A GIMPER in PERSON

A glimpse of a gimper...

A PLACE OF REST

I woke up with a smile and real joy today because me and my bestfriend Lorrin has found a new place of rest. A place where we can just lie down, kneel down, laugh, cry and share our thoughts after a day of work. It's a place where we can feel the reality of the word freedom, peace, joy and love... It is a place we can never exhange with, with other beautiful places in the whole wide world, and a place we can never live without. It's a place we always wanted to be. A place that we dont need to travel much and spent much, it only requires us our guitar, a Bible and heart filled with longingness and our love for the Lord, and gotcha! we're there... in the very PRESENCE of the LORD Most High!

Our lives seems to be complicated in the past few years, months, weeks... and now, God is just working in us in a very special way... It is so good to be in His presence. Everyday He is affirming to us His love that never ceases, never fails. God is so good! He thinks of us every single, every minute of the day. He loves us dearly and unconditionally. We might see our lives complicated, negative, troubled, but ei, beyond that ugly situation, God is woving a beautiful, complete, satisfied life in the end...just like a struggling coccoon, ugly, complicated coccoon, but inside of that horrible situation, a beautiful butterfly is ready to come out and enjoy the bounty of God's beautiful creation and blessing... If we only, only, only seek Him with all of our hearts, we will find HIM! We will find Him! and experience the glorious PRESENCE of Him!

If you're tired, about to give up, give yourself a REST!

Go and seek Him,

just dont forget to bring your heart filled with longingness and love for Him...

He'll never fail you.

He'll surely meet you!

GO NOW!

He's waiting for you!

MY NANAY

Today marks the death anniversary of my beloved grandmother, Juana Y Narvaez. I am so much indebted to this very strong half Spanish, lola... I love her so much! She stood as our mother and father... She's my number one fan... my dear bestfriend, my confidante, my teacher. I love everything in her.

And now that she's gone, her memory still remain in me, in us. You are dearly missed NAY! I love you... (whisper)

DON'T QUIT

I'm at my lowest when i got the chance to read this wonderful story. It touches my heart so much that I can't help myself but cry and seek my Father in heaven, my Master...

Ignace Jan Paderewski, the famous composer pianist, was scheduled to perform at a greater concert hall in America. It was an evening to remember. Present in the audience that evening was a mother with her fidgety 9 year old son. Weary of waiting, he squirmed constantly in his seat. His mother was in hopes that her son would be encouraged to practice the piano if he could just hear the immortal Paderewski at the keyboard. So against his wishes, he had come.

As she turned to walk with friends, her son could stay seated no longer. He slipped away from her side, strangely drawn to the ebony concert grand Steinway and its leather tufted stool on the huge stage flooded with blinding lights. Without much notice from the sophisticated audience, the boy sat down at the stool, staring wide eyed at the black and white keys. He placed his small, trembling fingers in the right location and began to play “Chopsticks.” The roar of the crowd was hushed as hundreds of frowning faces pointed in his direction. Irritated and embarrassed, they began to shout:
“Get that boy away from there!”
“Who’d bring a kid that young in here?”
“Where’s his mother?”
“Somebody stop him!”

Backstage, the master overheard the sounds out front and quickly put together in his mind what was happening, hurriedly, he grabbed his coat and rushed toward the stage. Without one word of announcement he stooped over behind the boy, reached around both sides, and began to improvise a countermelody to harmonize with and enhance “Chopsticks.” As the two of them played together, Paderewski kept whispering in the boy’s ear:
“Keep going. Don’t quit. Keep on playing… don’t stop… don’t quit.

And so it is with us. We hammer away on our project, which seems about as significant as “chopsticks” in a concert hall. And about the time we are ready to give up, along comes the Master who leans over and whispers: "Now keep going; don’t quit. Keep on… don’t stop… don’t quit," as He improvises on our behalf, providing the right touch at just the right moment.

Jesus believes in you and me... how about us?